Marriage Blue #1

November 2009, Nagaoka JP

Salam.

It's a gloomy Monday. In fact, KL kebelakangan ni memang gloomy, hujan mendung hujan.

Anyway, let's talk about marriage blue, hehe.

I think it's normal to have this weird feeling.
Although pernah dgr org ckp, kalau mmg tu jodoh kite, dia yg ditakdirkan utk kita,
kita tak akan pernah rasa ragu-ragu lagi.
Tapi haritu kitaorg bergaduh besar psl small things, or maybe for me it's just a small thing.
Gaduh punye gaduh sampai rasa "Eh, biar btol ako nk kawen ngn mamat ni?"

Siap post kat twitter the wedding is off.

My ex-boss pn pernah tegur, he asked ; kenapa kebelakangan ni muka gloomy je? mesti skarang tgh bercakap dgn diri sendiri, btol ke nk kawen dgn dia ni, btol ke nak kawen ni, eh entah2 nanti dia berubah cmni cmni, eh boleh ke ako nk hidup ngn dia ni etc..

Rupa-rupanya sebab bini dia dulu mcm tu katanye.

Normal kot?






Tapi sekarang dah 15hb, 2 more weeks, and the weird feeling hilang dah, yang tinggal hanyalah azam nak jadi seorang isteri yg baik, diredhai suami, diredhai Allah..

InsyaAllah.

Last, but not least, datang weird feeling lain plak, which is sedih --> Marriage Blue #2, soon.

I Look To You

Eh dah November?

Well org yg drive almost 1 hour pegi/balik dr ofis mcm daku mmg agak tak kuasa nak update blog bila dah sampai rumah.
Makan sambil tgk tv, tido.
Penat sampai malas makan, tido.
Makan kat luar, balik tido.

Anyway, although I dah invite kat Facebook, tapi I upload jugak la kat sini.
Yang mintak kad tu, akan ku cuba untuk gi pos, walaupun percentage dia rendah.
Akan cuba laaa, baru tau post office kat Mid Valley buka sampai malam.
Tapi yang area2 KL ni, akan ku pass kat sape2 nnt okay, yg penting all of you are invited ;)





We were classmates during PPKTJ (2003-2005),
gaduh2 kutuk2, jadi kawan baik and fell in love,
tapi pilih college lain-lain, university lain-lain kt Jpn,
konon-konon nak ada life sendiri,
but now, I guess we're ready.

Doakan kami, dear readers.

Thank you ;)

take a break

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.
~Javan

hujan lebat lagi

thought of creating a photoblog, hehe.
don't care if nobody wants to read it, hehe.


latest update : malas lah, export masuk sini sudeh, hehe.

dua puluh lapan

salam ramadhan yang ke 28..

sayu sbb hujung2 ni baru nak dtg kesedaran yg banyak2 sket, semoga bertemu lagi di tahun hadapan..

anyway i just want to share a few songs which inspired me thru my hard times. it`s not that i got inspired by all the lyrics, tp bila ulang-ulang balik lagu yg sama tu i can proceed my work, my study. dunno why.



first of all, masa SPM.



mmg lagu wajib dari album yg wajib diulang-ulang masa study SPM, siap dengan lirik kat tepi buku OK, bahahaha. bukan nak kata inspired by this song la, but the whole album kot. tatau kot celah mana yg dtg inspiration tu.



and then, ni lagu masa jukken (univ entrance exam)



bila kawan-kawan sekolej dah confirm masuk univ mana2, terkontang-kanting study sorang-sorang, failed jukken sorang2, dgr suara mama/abah dlm phone---> baru cakap `hello` pun dah mengalir2 air mata, i keep repeated this song.



and then ni masa final year kat univ



terkontang-kanting lagi sebab kena study sorang2 sebab failed one compulsory subject utk grad degree. failed bukan sebab tak study, tapi jiwa memang kacau gila bila 2 days before the exam, abah panggil balik Msia, arwah mama dah koma time tu. so kena ambil exam tu lagi sekali the next year, sape nak repeat sorg2 setahun lg wehhh kt Jpn tu, maka study tunggang terbalik sorg2 siap taknak jumpa org lagi, tah pape.



and this Ramadhan, when I feel lost.






btw, nothing can inspire me nor calm me down when mama passed away. NOTHING.
but honestly i feel better in Malaysia. no more crying in the middle of the night meraung panggil mama. so far, no more. Thank You Allah.




last but not least



Selamat Hari Raya all.