this morning

I was looking inside my purse and start counting how many RM left in it.
Harap2 cukup untuk beli breakfast, and will withdraw some cash from the ATM later.
As i don't like to bring many cash with me, selalu mesti withdraw small amount like RM50 je hehe.

Hubs looked at me and asked,

"Ade duit ke?"

And i answered,

"Ade, 2 ringgit, campur syiling ade la dlm 3 ringgit " and laughed.

Hubs geleng2 sambil keluarkan a rm10 note from his wallet.

"Nah nah pakai yg ni"

I refused to take it at first,

"Takpe, cukup kot 2 ringgit nak beli roti"

Tapi last2 amik jugak hehe




Teringat abah. I never know that you can be so like abah. Rindu abah + syg u.

while waiting

The way to get things done is not to mind who gets the credit for doing them. - Benjamin Jowett

the symptoms

Just wanna share here, how did I feel before i decided to do the upt test that morning.

1. gemuk tak pasal2

haha. tempah baju kurung kat SIL, ikut ukuran baju kurung lama la tapi tak la lama sgt, yang selama ni pakai gi keje elok je, tapi bila baju baru dah siap, kain tak muat like OMG?? tetiba plak kan punggung membesar ke? memang tak muat yg tersangkut kat punggung ahahah bengong. tu yg cakap kt twitter nak pegi gym tu sebab seumur hidup ni la 1st time kain baju kurung x muat? pastu test power, gi try kain2 lama, sama jugak, either ketat susah nak zip or tersangkut kat punggung.

2. badan panas

tapi tak demam pun. 2-3 hari jgk la, sampai hubs terjaga tgh2 malam and bagitau badanku panas.

3. nadi kuat di perut

baring2 meniarap kat atas katil tgk2 komputer, tetiba rasa nadi sendiri kat perut, like errr peliknye? terus google, and mmg betul rupanye tu salah satu simptom.




errr tu jelah kot. setengah org period lambat. tp pas kawen circle ku mmg tunggang langgang sket, kejap 28 days, kejap 30 days, kejap 32 days. haaaa lagi satu, badan rase tak sedap mcm nak dtg period. PMS. 2-3 malam susah tido, cramp2 pinggang sket.



btw, i have another thing to share here. it was my biggest reference.



actually, kene relaks la sebenarnye. bila baca tu terus kuat semangat. conceiving is not an easy thing for those yang planning, like myself. so bereksperimen lah banyak2 and enjoy it while experimenting ! (yang bwh 18thn or belum kahwin sila abaikan statement tersebut). tak boleh give up. tak boleh harap keputusan serta-merta.

memang org cakap jangan stress2, don't think about it so much. tapi bercakap tu memang senang. yang nak menanggung jawapan " dah ade ke belum?" especially masa kenduri kendara tu, susah tau !

so all i can say is, usaha mana yg mampu + doa banyak2 + tawakal.



yg dah conceived ni pun berusaha jgk, doa byk2 jgk, tawakal jgk, semoga semuanya selamat, semoga sentiasa memperoleh keberkatan dan dilindungi Allah selalu, insyaAllah, sama-sama lah kita..

26th Birthday Gift

Thought of sharing it here, sebagai kenang-kenangan kepada diri sendiri.

So, last 2 weeks, I woke up as usual in the morning to work, but with a curious feeling.

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positive ?!

I didn't expect it at all !

As I wanted it so much, that I did many home pregnancy tests every month since I get married. So, i thought it will be negative as my previous tests, and will end up makan mahal2 masa lunch kat office untuk mengubat kekecewaan, but as you can see in above picture, it's a positive !

Mamai kan pagi2, termenung kejap sebelum sedar itu adalah kenyataan, barulah menjerit "eeeeeeehhhhhh?!" dalam bilik air, and laung hubby yg tgh tido lagi.

"Bby, tgk ni !"

Dia bukak mata siket and said "maksudnya?"

"It's a positive la bby, eh biar btol? positive kan ni haaa cuba compare ngn gambar kat kotak ni"

so 2-2 macam takleh terima kenyataan, sebab 2-2 naakk sgt, bila Allah dah kasi tu mmg susah nak percaya, like..it's a miracle! so 2-2 taktau nak senyum ke nak gembira ke sebab ehh biar btoll? punye feeling.but i have a strong instinct, sebab selalu baca blog2, kalau test tu negative, boleh diragui, maybe hormon hcg dlm badan still rendah and the tester still tak dapat detect, so caranya kalau yakin sgt pegi la jumpa doc and buat blood test, which is more accurate. tapi jarang gile dgr org buat test positive tapi sebenarnye takde pape (except orang tu ada makan pil hormon ke before)..

and lagi satu yg buat instinct kuat, sebab guna tester yang branded (clearblue), yg dikatakan sgt sensitive compares to cheaper testers yg selalu dlm instruction die suruh test urine in the morning, sebab time tu hcg level paling tinggi. clearblue ni bleh test anytime. so pergi office perasaan bercampur baur. kebetulan lunch dekat midvalley, so beli another tester. and i bought 2! satu murah punya konon2 kalau negative bleh la diragui, and satu lg mahal gila.

so i tested it again using the cheap one first..

2 lines !

and again in the evening, before we went to see the doctor..

tester paling mahal, i think rm35 kot, tp mcm yg paling accurate la

as you can see on the screen there's 2-3 , which means 2-3weeks after conceiving, tapi kalau ikut doc's term, it is 4-5 weeks pregnant, sebab doc akan kira dari hari 1st period yang terakhir.

iklan : clearblue is totally recommended

so, pergi jumpa doc lepas tu.. and inform him psl dah buat upt test sendiri bla bla bla

then dia tanya "dah buat sendiri 3 kali? 3-3 pun positif?"

i nodded.

"hah positif la tu, takyah jumpa saye pun takpe"

waddehek?

dah la tak suruh buat test lagi sekali, memang dia tak check ape2 lgsg, sembang2 kosong je.

hubs dah happy2 terus call family dia and inform, ako plak nak kate happy sgt pun tak la sebab doc tu cm takleh pakai je.esoknya ajak hubs g klinik lain plak muahahaha and this time mmg doc btol2 buat urine test, timbang berat, high blood pressure, and bagitau ni bleh makan, ni jgn makan. doc 1st haitu kata awak makan apa saja, tak payah pantang2, grrrrrrr.



so, the result was double confirmed, 5 weeks, EDD will be end of Nov 2011 :)




harap dapat doakan kami yang baik-baik dan selamat semuanya...

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i'm glad, i'm thankful, ya Allah, sesungguhnya Kau Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.

affected

"If you allow your mind to dwell on thoughts of failure, you will attract like minds and you will experience even more failures because there are more negative thought vibrations in motion within our mental environment.

Do not allow yourself to be affected by the adverse and negative thoughts of those around you. Look for good in everything and everyone if you want to attract the things and people that correspond to your thoughts. "