manusia merancang, Allah tentukan

had my check up with Dr. Wan this morning.

hasilnya, merisaukan.

air ketuban mmg cukup2 makan.

Dr. suruh balik Ipoh this weekend utk check up kat Ar Ridzuan. then i told her i have no plan to go back sbb hubs kena kerja on Raya Haji, plus the weekend after that mmg nak balik Ipoh jmpe Dr Raofah. then Dr Wan cm risau, die kate kalau cmtu make sure jgn miss appointment on the next Tuesday (sehari lepas Raya Haji, sbb Isnin tu klinik die tutup) and die suruh start buat fetal movement chart from now on. Dr. kate kalau rasa less movement before jumpa die, terus gi hospital jgn tangguh2. die kate seorang ibu ada instinct yg kuat, so kalau tak sedap ati terus pegi hospital.

and kalau last appointment die kate ade possibility kena induce at 38 weeks kan. but i somehow know my baby belum engaged lagi. sbb takde sakit2 pun lagi. jalan pun teratur lg. sbb as far as i know, kalau baby dah engaged, kat V tu sakit2, jalan pun bersepah2 terkangkang sbb kepala baby dah kat bwh tu. so tadi suruh Dr. wan check. mmg baby belum engaged..tapi kepala dah menghala ke bwh..just belum masuk laluan nak keluar tu je..jauh lg kot sbb perut pun tak nampak jatuh lagi..

then i asked, ok kalau saye gi check pun weekend ni, tapi baby not yet engaged, then how? she looked at me and said " kalau cmtu possibility kene c-sect sgt tinggi.. "

dgr je c-sect tu, terus down la mood mommy. yelah sume org kalau bleh nak bersalin normal kan. c-sect sakit lepas ubat bius habis, tapi proses pemulihan tu amik masa yg lama. badan ni nak pakai lama lagi woooooo. and i wanna lots of kids too..

tp tu lah manusia merancang, tp Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk kita. doktor maybe cakap cmni but who knows Allah nak bagi ako rasa sakitnya melahirkan secara normal? who knows kan?

told hubs about this and dia pun risau. die setuju je kalau itu yg terbaik utk mommy & our lil baby.. Abah and Papa (my FIL) pun suruh balik weekend ni, ikut nasihat doktor..


btw, baby dah 2.8kg at 36 weeks. naik 0.5kg since the last 2 weeks. kalau baby keluar at 40 weeks silap2 berat die 3.8kg auchhhh hahaha.

i'm nervous but at the same time excited. can't imagine having a baby to call my own very soon !



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