take a break

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.
~Javan

hujan lebat lagi

thought of creating a photoblog, hehe.
don't care if nobody wants to read it, hehe.


latest update : malas lah, export masuk sini sudeh, hehe.

dua puluh lapan

salam ramadhan yang ke 28..

sayu sbb hujung2 ni baru nak dtg kesedaran yg banyak2 sket, semoga bertemu lagi di tahun hadapan..

anyway i just want to share a few songs which inspired me thru my hard times. it`s not that i got inspired by all the lyrics, tp bila ulang-ulang balik lagu yg sama tu i can proceed my work, my study. dunno why.



first of all, masa SPM.



mmg lagu wajib dari album yg wajib diulang-ulang masa study SPM, siap dengan lirik kat tepi buku OK, bahahaha. bukan nak kata inspired by this song la, but the whole album kot. tatau kot celah mana yg dtg inspiration tu.



and then, ni lagu masa jukken (univ entrance exam)



bila kawan-kawan sekolej dah confirm masuk univ mana2, terkontang-kanting study sorang-sorang, failed jukken sorang2, dgr suara mama/abah dlm phone---> baru cakap `hello` pun dah mengalir2 air mata, i keep repeated this song.



and then ni masa final year kat univ



terkontang-kanting lagi sebab kena study sorang2 sebab failed one compulsory subject utk grad degree. failed bukan sebab tak study, tapi jiwa memang kacau gila bila 2 days before the exam, abah panggil balik Msia, arwah mama dah koma time tu. so kena ambil exam tu lagi sekali the next year, sape nak repeat sorg2 setahun lg wehhh kt Jpn tu, maka study tunggang terbalik sorg2 siap taknak jumpa org lagi, tah pape.



and this Ramadhan, when I feel lost.






btw, nothing can inspire me nor calm me down when mama passed away. NOTHING.
but honestly i feel better in Malaysia. no more crying in the middle of the night meraung panggil mama. so far, no more. Thank You Allah.




last but not least



Selamat Hari Raya all.

salam kemerdekaan

31 August 2010.
Hari Kemerdekaan Malaysia yang ke-53.
Merdekakah kita?
Belum lagi.
Mindaku belum merdeka sepenuhnya lagi.

By the way, lagi beberapa hari je Ramadhan akan meninggalkan kita.
Tahun ni rasa datangnya Ramadhan tu cepat sangat, dan tiba2 dah nak sampai ke penghujungnya.
Cukupkah amalan kita?
Belum lagi.
Cetek sangat rasanya.

Bendera terbalik, Maizuru National College of Technology, Japan, 2007

Tolong Ingatkan Aku

Good morning !

It's Monday, but I'm feeling good. I drove all the way from Ipoh to office this morning.

It feels good sebab bukan selalu boleh merasa salam cium peluk parents before pergi kerja pagi2..

It feels good sebab bukan selalu balik rumah sendiri. In fact, I lost my way masa sampai Ipoh. Haha. Sebab before this, balik Ipoh bukan sendiri yg drive and lagi satu sebab is exit tol Ipoh makin complicated. Tol gate satu je, tapi exit ada 5.

It feels good sebab bukan lama lagi juga, boleh suka hati lari balik cari Abah bila menyampah dgn working life mcm ni.

It feels good sebab bukan selalu dapat spend masa mcm ni dgn Abah. And of course, Ummi.

It feels good sebab bukan lama lagi pun boleh menempel pergi mana2 pun ditemani oleh parents mcm ni.

It feels good sebab akhirnya berjaya menjadi maksu yg bertauliah melayan Fahim sehari suntuk mcm ni.

It feels good sebab bukan lama lagi pun boleh buat keputusan unpredictable-suke-hati-aku-lah mcm ni.

Semoga dipermudahkanNya, Amin.