marriage blue #2

happy thursday!

traffic was so clear today, so sampai office awal, mood dah bagus, tp air dlm tumbler yg selama ni tak pernah tumpah terkeluar sikit, bluerghhh badi toner mustika ratu kah?

anyway, ni cerita past tense la, ade sikit lagi weird feeling tu,
tapi dah berkurangan hari demi hari,
it's like what i call, menerima hakikat, hehe.


sedih #1

i'm an independent woman,
i do what i want,
i go where i wanna go,
i buy what i want to buy,
kesimpulannya,
i don't need to ask anyone's permission since 5-6 years back,
since i pursued my study in Japan,
i am on my own.

to be honest, i'm not the type yg akan inform him where i wanna go.
bukan sebab taknak bagitau, tp sebab selalunya terlupa, hehe.
kadang2 tgh lepak2 tu tetiba dia call or sms baru teringat nak cakap.

there are times when i feel depressed,
it won't take me too long to decide to go back to ipoh, my hometown.
i can decide 1 hour before my working hours habis,
i also can decide bila dah masuk federal highway nk balik shah alam,
tetiba menghala ke NKVE nk balik ipoh,
there are times when i can only calm down once i reach ipoh.
there are times when i feel tak sedap hati and nak balik tgk abah tgh buat ape.

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therefore, i guess it is hard for me at the beginning, to be a dependant wife.

sedih #2

one thing you should know about me is,
privacy is very important to me.
maybe because i was born as the only girl in siblings,
i had my own room since i was 7,
i don't share my clothes and my things with my siblings; as both of them are boys.

so, sharing room with someone else ain't easy yo!
*tak percaya boleh tanye dart, hehe.
rasa kena behave, rasa tak bebas.

my 1st roomate, roomate tegar, hehe

my 2nd roomate

ni kan plak nak share bilik, with a guy? ;p



another thing you should know about me is,
i love hanging out with him or the girls,
but..
there are times when i feel like not talking to anyone.
there are times when i feel like drinking my fav coffee,
while watching orang lalu-lalang kat starbucks, alone.
there are times when i feel like reading cooking books in MPH, alone.
and there are times when i feel like shopping and wasting money beli girls stuffs, alone.

that is what i call, my time.

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so it is hard for me at the beginning, to share everything with him.


sedih #3

zaza,dart,yana i know u're not in the pics, nnt balik umh ako letak, hehe

i am close to my girlfriends since 7 years back.
since i was away from my family, they were all that i got.
they saw me laughed, they saw me cried, and they are still here.




until now, eventhou semua orang dah balik mesia, keje,
but we still keep in touch thru twitter,
some of them pun dah jadi warga shah alam,
tempat meluahkan perasaan lepas working hours.



i used to be the most excited person to organize a surprise party for them,
i used to be a good listener to some of them,
i used to pujuk fai jangan dtg nagaoka this certain2 weekend
sebab the girls dah buat plan best2.



sedih.
i can't join them watching natrah end of this month.
i can't join ayu & nana jalan2 to nilai3 to cari barang2 tunang nana,
dah susah nak join ape2 dah kot.

but then, i realize that, life is life,
maybe susah nak lepak sama2 dah lepas ni,
but as long as twitter wujud lagi,
as long as semua orang memang connected to the internet everyday,
we will still keep in touch with each other.

XOXO


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end of the chapter,

life goes on,

and life in Malaysia ain't that bad yo! hehe